Yes, you read right. January 2, 2014. That was one year ago. One year ago that I woke up and I could feel it again… My first cervical had moved again. For the 7 or 8th time for the past 9 months, it had moved again. And I was in pain again. And again, I went to my specialist, an atlas orthogonist (have you heard of that one before?) and she confirmed that indeed my first cervical had moved again out of its alignment. But January 2, 2014 would be the last time that I would see my specialist and that I would be in pain. Let me backtrack.
It is September of 2012 and headaches start to bother me. First, they are subtle and far apart but they grow stronger and more frequent. The pain radiates through my jaws and my neck. First, I see my endocrinologist (because I have a thyroid disorder) and we eliminate the possibility that it is coming from my thyroid. He sends me to an ENT specialist. She diagnoses that I have TMJ. I am sent to a dentist and he tells me that I must wear a night guard. It is ordered and I can’t stand wearing it; the headaches are getting stronger. I go to see a TMJ specialist and through many tests, he designs a 3 month treatment for me. I wear a retainer that is allowing my bottom jaw to move freely. For three months, I speak like a duck with that thing in my mouth. After that period, the TMJ specialist has to trim my teeth down to make both my jaws fit together again. Headaches stop. For three or four weeks. By that time, It is June 2013. My headaches are now migraines and I can’t function anymore some days.
I move to DC and I go to a new specialist and she sees nothing wrong with my jaw and bite. She retraces my history from the beginning and is convinced that the problem is coming from my neck. She sends me to another specialist; an atlas orthogonist. There are very few of them in the States. After x-rays and measuring my legs, hips, and shoulders, it is confirmed. My first cervical was out of line with my spine. My first cervical was going right and the second was going left. They were misaligned with my spine.I had a leg shorter than the other, a hip higher than the other, and a shoulder lower than the other. Since the Atlas, the first cervical, is at the top of my spine, my whole spine had moved.
After pushing my atlas back to its place with a machine that sends vibration, I go home and I am told that everything is my spine would move and to take it easy.
From June 2013 until January 2, 2014 I went through pain I can’t describe. I know it taught me to be compassionate with sick people. I could not exercise anymore because each time I would try, I would move a bone. I could not lift things, I could not go to the grocery store and carry bags, I could not sleep on my side and just putting a sweater on was painful.
I had headaches and migraines so violent that some days I could not function. I would wake up some mornings and feel bones in my skull moving. I misaligned my scapula twice and my shoulder once. I felt my bone tail moving several times, I pinched a nerve in my neck. I could not stand people, light, noise, or anything.
The worst thing was that this Atlas was supposed to stay in place after the first intervention but it did not. It moved several times. Every 3-5 weeks, it would move again out of its alignment. At some point, I would see the doctor 3 times a week. She would adjust things here and there in my spine, my jaw, my nose, my skull.
And the pain continued. I cried so many days and nights. I prayed. I prayed everyday for healing. I went to every meeting in which they could lay hands on me to pray for healing. I searched God and His face. I promised that I would worship Him regardless of the pain and the wait. And I did. I never gave up even when I did not understand because I knew that He knew.
January 2, 2014. I wake up and I feel horrible. It is out again. I go to see my specialist and she confirms it. It is out. This time, she looks at me in the eyes and she said these words: “ I do not know why it is moving, there is nothing else we can do for you and I strongly recommend that you do not go to Chad because you will be miserable”. I go home with my husband. I felt like I was staring at the eyes of a giant. The giant of fear and defeat. I knew I was supposed to go to Chad, there was no doubt in my mind.
I call my pastor and he prays on the phone over me. As he prays, he quotes John 10:10 (the thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy but I have come to give life and to give it to the full). As he quotes it, suddenly, faith rises up in my spirit and I know that I know that I know that it is done.
January 2,2014 was the last time that I saw my specialist. I never set foot in her office since then. On that day, I started to recover. The headaches started to go away. This time they grew weaker and further apart. Bones stayed in place. I started to be able to do things again.
Faith comes from hearing and hearing from the word of God. When HE speaks to your life, faith comes. I can’t create faith. I can’t make myself believe. I can’t convince myself. Faith comes from God. Of course, I believe and I trust but as I believe, trust and lean on His Word, at some point… there is a revelation. His Word comes and heals. His word is enlightened in my life and I can believe. Those who come to Him must believe that He is (Hebrew) and that He is the rewarder of those who seek Him. As you pray and seek Him, He comes and rewards you with a Word, His Word that He reveals and you believe and healing comes.
To all my friends out there who are struggling with sickness. Don’t give up. Keep seeking His face, keep seeking Him in His word and at some point, He will reveal Himself to you and faith will come and you will be healed. Do not settle for little healing, little progress but believe that He is big enough to give you life and life more abundantly.
Praise be to God! By the way… I have been in Chad for almost 9 months and I have been feeling awesome! God is great. The enemy had plans but God had greater plans!